HI and Thanks so much for coming to this page .

I started building this site just recently because for three years I’ve been struggling with my own personal journey, my own potential Psychic gift, since I lost my best, dearest pal and spiritual mentor and soul mate at an early age ( she was only 49 years old) through breast cancer.

She was not just the best pal I ever had, she was my mentor and leveler in every aspect of my life.  Her psychic gift was unparalleled.
She was also my sister. We were only a year apart in age and I was her only brother and losing her was the singular most unbearable loss I have ever experienced. We had been close since we were born and stayed close throughout our lives.

She was supremely spiritual in the gentlest way. She was never one to get on a soap box and preach or ever attempt to influence anyone else’s opinion even though she had a very tuned in psychic ability. But ten minutes talking through any issue, be it personal or moral or business or anything at all, and ten minutes was more than enough to get the clearest vision of how to handle that particular issue. Her most quoted catch phrase at the conclusion of any discussion regarding an issue that was troubling me, would be to always quietly remind me by saying…

“Remember Paul, ALL THINGS ARE PERMANENTLY PERFECT”

And everything seemed OK. That is also why I have quoted her in the short video clip above. That’s her in the pictures as if you hadn’t already figured that out!

She was so gifted psychically, and gave so freely of that gift to anyone, with such devotion to kindness and sensitivity. Many people I met and know that had met or known her no matter how fleetingly have commented so often, that they felt they had met someone quite unique and indeed she really was. In fact I have heard many times people refer to meeting her as though they had met an angel. Personally, even though yes she was my sister, I believe they did. I believe she was, and is. So who the F**K stole my angel!!!?????

Please forgive my insinuated bad language but it’s really the center point of this posting and the motivation and inspiration for this whole website.

Her name was (should say IS) Sharon, and I’ve have spent the three years since losing her feeling every emotion I can imagine, even emotions I didn’t know existed prior to this. I’ve been though all the feelings of anger, feeling cheated out of having my best friend. A feeling as though someone stole her away.

I felt lost and cut adrift without the solid foundation of her guidance, and so fearful of not having those signposts she would subtly put up for me to follow. I have felt the sorrow and shear hopelessness of that loss. The deepest grief and bitterness of not being ever able to ever have the chance to speak to her, ask her guidance again, or just let her know how deeply I loved her.

So for all these years I’ve been searching for answers and desperately trying to understand the why, how and purpose of her death. My rage at the injustice of someone so gentle, so understanding, so enlightened, and so loved by everyone, losing her to such a painful ordeal as breast cancer just didn’t make any sense to me. She just didn’t deserve that.

I’m still struggling with it all. So I have had a very roller coaster journey these three years looking and searching for answers, some proof that there IS SOMETHING after we die. I want to know for two reasons.

1) Because I want to know she is there still, and that she knows I love her and that maybe she will look over me.

2) Because like so many of us , we so want to believe that there is something there for us too, and that if there is, then those we love, loose and miss so much, that we will be with them again.

My biggest problem is the constant internal mental battle with my logic mind and my feelings. I want so much to believe and feel a connection with loved ones passed and spirit guides, and do so envy those who have mastered their psychic clarity.

Mine is constantly bombarded with self doubt and criticism of my own thoughts whenever I start to feel there are signs or feel voices. (yes I mean FEEL voices because it isn’t actually like hearing them, it’s like I’m talking to myself in a conversational manner, feeling as though I’m actually having a two way chat with Sharon)  and then I catch myself doing that and BAM! In pops that bloody voice again saying, “Oh Paul get a grip, it’s just a silly feel-good B S. Do you really think you’re talking to her? Come on man! It’s just your romantic notions etc “...

So I’m constantly drifting into this lonely private world of some manner of communication, and out again, into this cold hard three dimensional, logic, conscious, tangible world in the here and now, feeling almost foolish and childish at what I feel is just self indulgent and delusional fantasies. Having fleeting thoughts that amount to little more than avoiding the harsh alternative of one’s own lonely reality, our eventual mortality.

I’m so sure I can’t be alone in this, or be the only one that is or even has been in this no-man’s land between wanting to believe certain signs and refusing to allow one’s self to let go and develop what might just be there for us all.

I’m wondering if the resistance to let go really is just a form of self protection. I too scared to let go and believe. What happens if I find out that indeed it really is nothing more than fantasy and the subsequent, and overwhelming let down, that there is after all ….nothing!

After all isn’t better to not believe and avoid possible abandonment of hope later, and just stay with the predictable and manageable grasp of the brutally, fatal and inevitable demise of us all? Kind of like the adage ….’Tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all”… but in reverse! Like saying it’s better to never love then to love and get hurt.

That’s why I wanted to start this website (slash) blog, whatever one prefers to tag it as… because I was hoping that over time I might hear and start communicating via this forum/platform/avenue, with others who have either been here, and come through it, and can share their experiences and stories, and support those of us still on our journey. Also offer hope to those of us out there, like me that need help to complete the journey. So both parties can benefit from shared thoughts, experiences, and sound advice.

Support from those of you out there that have been though deep loss. Those of you out there that have had all the same wanderings, and can help, and reach out to us that need a helping hand through trauma, fear, anger and resentment that is so destructive and counter-productive.

Who better to communicate with then someone who has experienced the same thing? At the same time, who better to talk to and mutually comfort then those who are currently going though the same struggle?

But not just a blog for us all to share our thoughts and get our feelings out and benefit from others. But also a forum where anyone can offer suggestions and recommendations, words of encouragement and hope. Suggestions of referral to videos and or products or seminars, anything that you have witnessed or tried, and know to be worthwhile and helpful.

I want to continue to search for my answers and in the process if I hear of or see or discover advise, help , guidance , videos or products that I believe are solid and genuine, or even people I meet or psychics that I believe are real true spirits with genuine intent, I will post and blog and even put up articles and even recommend other peoples tools or products that if they help me in any way , might help others.

I must add this…That last month I attended and workshop in Queensland (what a dreamy heavenly place that is) It was a 2 day workshop on mediumship, and development of one’s own abilities, and techniques, to exercise and develop them for one’s self….

It was really wonderful, not just the atmosphere, but the content and the people attending and most of all the presentation of the content. That was by Lisa Williams, and I have little doubt that anyone reading this, that has any exposure to the overall subject of mediums, psychics or anything spiritually related, is fully aware and familiar with who Lisa is.

She is one of the most beautiful, open, honest and genuinely lit up souls I have ever met, since Sharon. I can say that because I had the fortunate pleasure of bumping into her the morning after the weekend work shop and after some conversation in the resort foyer whilst checking out (as was she), I was invited to share her cab ride for the half hour trip to the airport. Having spent the previous two days of that weekend, I was thinking how easy she is to listen to, and how likable she seemed.

Now I was able to experience that one on one. We laughed, giggled and chatted all the way to the departure terminal. So I personally confirmed my own suspicions that she is indeed as lovely and gentle in the flesh as she appears in the media.

BTW and FYI…..If you haven’t read  her book (I’ve popped the extract of her interview up here on the top right hand side of this page) If you haven’t read her book…PLEASE PLEASE get a copy and do so , it is really fantastic!

But meeting and (all be it brief), getting to chat one on one I clearly see her as being simply one of the loveliest genuine hearts in this world today. As with my sister Sharon, you can’t help but like her on sight….Why? ….simple….It saves time!

I would love to write a book about my sister , a little about her and also about my journey since I lost her, but I’m really not sure where to start and as my journey is still, shall I say …work in progress!… I wonder if
A) I should be able to write it.
B) If indeed anyone would be at all interested in reading it! Who knows, I just have this gut feeling and desire to write it ……maybe I will, but in the mean time I will just try and develop this site and hope together with you guys out there, we might all help each other develop and grow.

Ill will add more posts as we go and would dearly love to hear feedback/ comments or suggestion or absolutely anything you want to voice …do it on the ” Write your thoughts” page which I will leave clear of any particular comments from you and responses from me or anyone else reading that thread.

I’d really love to hear from you.

Lots of love and best wishes to you, whoever you are, where ever you are, and have a fantastic brilliant day, or night depending on when and where your reading this.

hugs and love…